Are we there yet?

Lots has been happening. I finally finished my Psychology bachelor's of science. the girls and I took a short weekend to Vegas. Had sushi at Nobu at the Hard Rock Hotel, did some shopping and went to our favorite piano bar at the Paris hotel. It was a great weekend. I was with the perfect girlfriends, Andrea and Elizabeth. Vegas always does something to me. It is so extreme in so many ways, it always takes me a few days or months to get back in the groove. Its almost as if it confuses me, that kind of mesmerizing confusion. Its fun while your in the middle of it, but I am happy to be back in Laid Back California. As I walked out of my last algebra class knowing that it was the completion of my degree I felt such a strong urge to scream out loud...Free at Last, Free at Last...and so happy and thankful that I had the will and determination to finish. It was definitely not easy. but it was definitely worth it. I will be walking all pomp and circumstancial in June and I can't wait. Josh and Kelly got me the perfect gift for graduation...Killers Tickets to see them in Sacramento and the plane ticket to get there. Thank you to them. I cannot wait until September. I have been thinking a lot lately about the age old question..which part is mine? and which part is God's? I am still asking this, sometimes pretty frequently. Why do i have the need to control? I have started meditating in the morning, it is supposed to help with the overthinking and the need to understand and identify every detail of every emotion and thought. Am I fighting a losing battle? No, I don't think so..i do think that I have a long way to go. I do know that i have excellent friends and family support. And I have U.2. In the last few years U2's music has been a bit of a spiritual strength to me. I went for a drive today and while I was driving and singing had a bit of a cathartic moment with Bono from Joshua Tree.... Red Hill Mining Town. "I'm hanging on..You're all thats left to hold on to. I'm still waiting, I'm hangin on, You're all thats left to hold onto" God knows what I mean. I know that for sure at least.